slight insomnia

So once again, I have returned to write, no, more like vent out my present state of mind here.

As the title of this post suggests, I’m suffering from insomnia, but only for tonight, I’m hoping. Since I can’t seem to fall asleep, I thought I might as well rant a little and get some of the things that have been bugging me recently off my mind. Seems like I’m only using this blog for this particular purpose, doesn’t it?

Once again, I’m questioning myself because, as usual, my frivolous mind loves wandering and wondering. Confused? So am I, very much so, in fact.
Reason for my confusion? Life in general- what else? (;

Also, there’s only one person to blame for my confusion. That person? Who else, but me. Me, because, I can never seem to decide on important things. I can’t ever seem to understand the ongoings of my own mind (or sort out the clutter in it for that matter). And of all the thoughts, the most cluttered and confused are those dealing with matters of the heart.

It drives me quite mad and annoyed with my own self when I think about those matters. Especially how indecisive and fickle-minded I can be regarding them. Then, of course, I just remain all the more confused whenever I try to sort them thoughts out.

Sigh. Terrible of me, isn’t it? But I’m hoping and praying I’ll find the answers I’m looking for one day. Preferably, soon.

Right. I might be able to catch some zzzs. I seem to have tired myself a little with this post. I bid you all a good night.

movie night

So. Just watched The Last Samurai. Yes, I know. It’s been out for years and I’m only watching it now. But recently I’ve been going through a weird phase- the watching martial arts films. Yeap. Includes all those chinese martial arts movies. Okay, fine. Asian martial arts movies.
Anywho. I’ve never cried this much and just from watching a movie. But yeah. There are parts in the movie that are really sad- most of it involving someone dying.
But really. Awesome movie. Funny bits, sad bits, and lots of action. The only thing I felt a bit funky about was Tom Cruise. No offence to him or his acting, it was good. But it was just weird for me, is all.
Seriously, it was definitely worth my time. I mean, it’s about samurai. And c’mon, there was even ninjas in it. What more can I say?
Right. I’m leaving it at that. It’s late and I should get some sleep. Lots to do, you know. Deadlines coming up and I’ve not started on the work. So yeah. Watch the movie. Nightttt! (;

important november

November’s been eventful. And it’s only the middle of the month.

I got the chance to go for a McFly signing and it was absolutely fantastic. It’s a real dream come true for me to see them in real life. (=

Uni’s been tough. But what can you expect? It’s third year. The pressure is on! Sadly, though, I’ve not been really motivated to study or do my work. And my procrastination has been worse than ever.

I know, I know. I’ve got to push myself. No one else is here to do that. And I can’t rely on others for the rest of my life.

And that’s why I’m in bed tonight. At a quarter past midnight. Ready for bed for a fresh start tomorrow. In the middle of my reading week. New resolution: stop sleeping at odd hours and reduce the procrastination, at the very least, if I can’t stop it totally.

And this time. I’ll try my absolute best to stick to this resolution. Fingers crossed, alright? (;

Right, then. Bedtime! Lots of things to do tomorrow. Night, all! Loves.

summer ’10

Third day of internship with Jerasia. It’s not too bad. I quite like it. Today I learnt about MNG merchandising. It’s cool. Sure there’s a lot of stuff to understand and do, but it’s all for helping the shop get better business.

Hmmm. Don’t really have much to talk about. I’ve been quite out of it recently. Not getting enough sleep, I suppose. Don’t really know how my brain is processing all the stuff everyone’s been teaching/explaining to me.

Tomorrow’s I’m going to be doing window change. Think it’s going to be fun. That’s it for now. Loves.

hmmm

So I randomly came up with this… poem I guess.. and I thought I’d just post it up for fun. Hahaha! The rhyming probably sucks a little but hey, it was late and it was random.

I’ve tried to find a reason
I’ve tried to find a cure
But everything’s just so useless
Cuz I keep thinking of you even more

I wrote a poem for you
A silly song too
It’s like I’m going crazy
But it’s not worth it anymore

Before I end this shindig
Just tell me a little something
What I’m really asking is
Why can’t I let you go?

Yeapp. There you go, my pretties. Something to read. (=

it’s just so… ugh!

Omg! It’s 3am and I’m awake. Why? Well I was watching Vampire Diaries at first. But then I went online to find some solution to my phone problem.
What’s wrong with my phone? Now that’s the annoying and frustrating thing. I don’t have a damn clue! On the 21st I got a new phone- the Blackberry Bold 9700. The problem? I can’t add international contacts on the blackberry messenger. It’s forever pending even though they’ve already accepted the request. I just don’t get it. Everyone else doesn’t seem to have a problem. Just my damn phone. I went back to the shop too! Asked the staff there what’s wrong with my phone. Person there says it’s not my phone but the network provider in the other country. All I can do is wait.
But I can’t wait any effing longer. It’s annoying the crap out of me since I know that there is a solution to this damn problem but I just can’t find it.
Ugh! Forget this. I’m too annoyed and frustrated. And I don’t really want to think about this again right now. This freaking problem better find a way to fix itself. I’m going to sleep.

still not working

hmm.. this is funny.

I created this blog to help me with my writer’s block.

But. I’ve left it empty for sooo long. Hahaha. It’s crazy because I’m busy with assignments and now there’s my ECS1300 paper I have to sit for tomorrow, which I, hopefully, will do well enough to not fail.

So technically, my rather long writer’s block is still annoying me. This is bad because I have to start being active on those forums I joined. Sighh. This sucks a**.

Oh well. Must continue with econs. Tomorrow is coming. Unfortunately for me.